Holiday in Florida

For the most part, I haven't really missed not having holidays in Michigan. We seemed to have managed pretty well on our own down here and have tried to adhere to traditions we began for the Marbles in Michigan. I remember Easter when I was younger meant church in the morning and then brunch at my grandparents then we'd end up at my aunts for dinner. It was a day to be with family which I suppose is what most holidays are about.

Once I got married, there were more families to visit and at times the holidays became more of a rush of fitting visiting into one day than it was about the true meaning of what we were celebrating. And now that I am here in Florida I would gladly take a day of rushing around visiting relatives than what I had as an Easter holiday this year.

Maybe it's that I try to hard or that I expect other people to put the same amount of effort into things that I do. I want the guests that come to my house to have a pleasant experience and leave remembering either a dish that I made, a conversation we had or with the idea that they had an enjoyable time in my home. I do this because I adore my friends and family and I want to do it. The unfortunate thing is that my options for having people over is limited. Having been down here almost three years, I am still pretty lonely and yearn for the companionship I had with all my connections up north. I have one friend here, Blue, he pretty much is the only person I can say is my "friend". But, the fact that he doesn't have a vagina makes things complicated on the home front at times. TGIM is very giving of his time with me. I think TGIM and I work better as a couple when our time together is limited. It's just how it's always been. I was the one with the friends who went out and he was the homebody. To this day, if it weren't for the love of his boat I think TGIM would be a permanent fixture on the couch. So, my friendship with Blue isn't an issue when it comes to TGIM and me. However, Blue often feels like he is being pulled in two different directions by his wife and me. This is a position I do not want Blue to be in as I respect his marriage and realize that time with his wife takes priority over hanging out with me. But, when there isn't anyone else to hang out with and I know my buddy is sitting around his house just as bored as I am sitting around my house and both our spouses are sleeping because they work in the morning, then where's the harm in getting together to laugh and joke around?

I have gone off the point I was trying to make. I guess I am just sad because i worked really hard on a nice Easter dinner for my only friend down here, his wife and my family and I feel like I worked all day to prepare everything and make it all be nice and it was over in the blink of an eye... and all I really wanted to do tonight was sit on the lanai with my awesome TGIM and my buddy Blue and laugh. And I was let down that not only did that not happen but it wasn't like Wobega, August, Sash or Javas was coming over to hang out either.

****Sigh******