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Sometimes lately I have just wanted to be quiet. The Marbles have been in Michigan so it's been easy for me to wander around the house in silence. I thoroughly enjoy the quiet and any chance I get I have the TV off and I am just sitting around thinking.

These last few weeks have come with a surge of memories. I didn't think a person was capable of remembering so much, but i've dug deep into my brain to allow so many memories to surface. Both my close friends have been on vacations so I haven't been able to talk to them about anything so TGIM has gotten the brunt of my laughter and my tears. It's ok that he has no idea what to say as I cry and wipe the tears away. But, he listens and that's all I can ask for.

The next coming weeks are going to get even harder. I am going to be enduring something for the first time in my life that I have never had to go through...ever. Something that when other people have gone through it I would selfishly think, "I'm glad it's not me." Well, my time has come and I hope my legs hold me up so I don't collapse with grief.