The Long Wicked Laugh

It's been a long time since I laughed. I actually know the day when I had my last head splitting laugh. I was sitting at Mongolian barbecue with Sash and August and I laughed. It was a laugh that was expelled in the comfort of friends. A laugh that continued longer than the topic was funny. A laugh that brought tears to my eyes. A laugh that has been suppressed by sadness for several months now. I thought once I moved down here, I wouldn't be able to laugh again. I felt like all my humor with my girl friends was left in Michigan and only there, would I be able to laugh again.

I miss laughing. I miss being in the presence of my friends laughs. I miss laughing with them.. at them...around them. But, today something was funny. And I laughed. For a long time. And it felt good. And none of the people I was with will ever understand why my laugh today lasted longer than it should except for me. But, today I realized that it's ok to be happy here. It's ok to open myself up to someone. And yes, Bitchet, it's ok to laugh!